missing you...

... so much, my heart aches. i tell myself i have to be strong, i'll manage, it's only gonna be three weeks. yeah, three weeks. it'll pass quickly, they all say.

not when you're missing someone.

i wake up every morning with a feeling that something's missing. i may have a packed schedule, but it still feels empty. no matter how much i try to fill up my day, i can never fill up that gaping hole inside.

and i'm feeling it right now. it's growing and growing, encapsulating my mind. i was doing fine the whole day, until the email i wrote to you bounced. i realised that i may not be able to talk to you for the next 20 days. i'm thinking of you, coming back from your bell run, expecting an email from me, but there is none. and that really shits me. it really shits me! URRRGHHH!!!

right now, my world is as bleak as a stormy day in antartica.